The 12 Deaths of Hunter Grey
by
Charlie C, Milwaukie, USA, Age 17
It was cold
and dark, and the only light came from the dim buzzing Streetlight
that spread its faltering orange light over the snow-covered ground.
I attempted to fight a futile battle against the cold, knowing I
could never win, and wondering what they were doing right now, probably
warm and safe in their big house with lots of food. I tried not
to think of the food, I hadn’t eaten in 3 days.
As the time passed by in slow blurred frames I started to think,
how did I end up here? How far have I fallen from what I used to
be? How I went from captain of the basketball team to begging for
food and stealing car parts for drugs.
Then I remembered the first night, the first step that caused me
to fall down the spiral staircase, and my slow decent into a world
more scary then I thought could be.
I was 17, and sitting the basement of my best friend Johnny’s
cousin, Rick. He just came down the stairs and looked at Johnny,
then at me.
“Hey Hunter, wanna go on a trip? He asked.
I looked from him to Johnny, not understanding what he was talking
about.
“Yeah I guess...” I said slowly.
He tossed me an aspirin bottle and told me to take one. I fumbled
with the child lock on the lid and opened the bottle. Then I took
one. I sat on the couch falling backwards into the color red, the
air smelled like the color blue, and I felt my legs walking away
from me. I looked over at Johnny, he was laughing, his face elongated
and deformed, melting, the drops of flesh falling onto the sky forming
a little “Johnny pool”. I couldn’t see Rick, but
I could see little white dots flying through the air, laughing and
giggling, I wanted to laugh and giggle with them, I felt calm, and
relaxed, like I was in a different world, a better world where no
one hurt and I was safe, I felt like I could fly to the sun, which
was right above me waving and smiling at me singing my name, calling
me towards it.
It was so beautiful I wanted to cry, but I could only smile and
look around, walking in my new kingdom, flying over mountains, while
never leaving the color red behind, the smell turned to green, then
yellow, and I thought blue was the best out of all of them. That
was the greatest feeling of my life, until I fell down the last
step.
I started to cry, huddled in my corner on the edge of town, by the
bay, no one to talk to, no one to hug or touch me, let me know I
was worth a damn or that they even cared, hoping I was safe and
crying for me. How far have I fallen I kept saying in my head, I
wanted to get high so bad to stop my hurting, but that thought just
made me cry more, I held my knees and cried, I was 18, and scared
and alone, I wanted my mom to hold me, I wanted me dad tell me he
loved me, I wanted my little brother to feel like I would protect
him no matter what, not think I was a god damn druggie shooting
up meth in the bathroom of a convenience store. The tears on my
face practically froze to my cheek, and I wiped my face fiercely.
Then I started remembering the last night I was in my house.
My mother had made stuffing for dinner it was the best taste in
the world. I was warm and comfortable, also stoned out of my mind
my mom and dad walked into my room, my 16-year-old brother behind
them.
“Hunter...We need to talk to you...” My mom said, she
was falling into the pink and green spiral, and I thought I should
tell her, but I couldn't speak.
My dad looked into my eyes.
“We know you’re doing drugs, and we know you’re
probably high right now, I thought I raised you better then this
shit! You’re way to smart and good for this! , He shouted.
“What the hell are you talking about? I’m not doing
drugs!” I shouted, my voice ringing in the air.
“Don’t you fuckin’ lie to me god damn it!”
“Get the hell out of my room!”
“Hunter, please, man...I’m scared”, Tommy said
looking like he was about to cry.
“I’m not fucking doing drugs, get the fuck outta my
room”.
“God damn it! That’s it, you’re high right now,
I'm calling the police” Dad said leaving the room.
I jumped up and ran after him, I grabbed his shoulder and her turned
around and slapped me, so I socked him in the face, mom screamed
and Tommy yelled something I didn’t hear, Dad got up and tried
to grab me and hold me down but I kicked him and ran as fast as
I could, out the door down the street and didn’t stop till
I was far, far away.
That’s how far I have fallen, I had been living on the streets
for two months, and It was Christmas eve...I missed them, I wanted
to hold my mom and say I'm sorry to my dad, and I'm sorry to my
little brother I was so ashamed, and broken.
I wanted to go back, but what if they didn’t love me anymore,
what if they would still call the police and try to hold me there...I
was tired of sleeping under a bridge in down town Daxton, and I
was tired of being hungry. I was tired of waking up every god damn
day wondering why I’m still alive living this dreck life and
thinking to myself I wish I were dead, I wish I could just die and
stop being a smudge on the floor of society and another etch on
the wall of forsaken people, I can’t even begin to explain
that feeling of the rush you get, for 30 or 40 seconds of unimaginable
bliss, then the ripping sensation of happiness that leaves your
body when you realize it’s not the real thing.
I was dirty, and I smelled horrible, my hair was matted, and my
teeth were rotting out of my skull. I am the greatest death or Hunter
Gray. The greatest let down. How did Hunter die? The first 10 times
were in his friend’s basement. The 11th time was a bullet
to the head. I thought about it so often. I wanted to end my unbearable
sadness, but Her face, his laugh, his words... My mother, my brother,
by father, they were my last breath before I took my finger from
the trigger and dropped to the ground. Every day was the worst day
of my life. In theses days, finding a half eaten sandwich on the
bus made my week bearable.
I knew now I had to see them, I had to see my mom dad and Tommy
I had to. I got up, wiped my tears away and began to walk, shivering
and stuttering down the dock, to the street. I used a doctored bus
pass to get a free ride and sat for what felt like forever while
the bus rode on. It dropped me off a few busy streets away from
home, and I had to walk. The whole time I kept thinking I love them
so much, I can’t wait to see them, I hope they still love
me, I hope me and Tommy can be buds again, I hope I can still be
a mamas boy, and be the chief my dad always called me.
I could see the house now, so close, I could see the lights on the
trees and in the yard, But I didn’t see the car speeding towards
me.
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